When I was a child, I spoke and thought and reasoned as child but when I grew up, I put away childish things – 1 Corinthians 13: 11
On a recent trip to Italy, my head was spinning. It seems as though once you step out of the rat race your mind begins to analyse your life without your permission; filing, analyzing and strategising.
In essence, stepping out of your little world and busy life gift you with the time to see your journey from a new perspective.
One thing I was really struggling with was the amount of work I had on my plate. Podcasts, music, a life coaching programme, a life coaching course, my blog, my day job and so on.
As an idealistic person, and I think partially because of my ADHD, I struggle to prioritise. I want to do everything at once. I struggle sometimes to see the realistic approach in any situation.
At the end of the trip, a family member encouraged me to quit some side projects, simplify and, quintessentially, focus on one thing at a time,
His exact words were something around, ‘To get somewhere in life, you’re going to have to let a few Dayna’s die.’
This is something I experienced almost somatically in my last Ayahuasca ceremony where, surprisingly, I was being invited to be more practical, grounded, committed, focused and to not let my idealism run away with me.
I remember sitting in the hills of the Drakensburg following the recent night’s ceremony, almost literally feeling as though a younger, more starry-eyed vision of me was dying.
Nonetheless, although I have had a few hiccups, by viewing the world through a certain lens, by making the necessary sacrifices I began to build and I am still building a foundation whereby I have more time, options, choices and my entire personal universe has expanded in a way that has allowed my idealistic side more room to play and enjoy itself.
Many may have realised this early on, but my stubborn idealism has prevented me from, well, growing up, and I am slowly beginning to realise that in order to find that space to play and to follow my real purpose I need to view the world in a much more grounded way and make some very difficult sacrifices.
I am, at least for the most part, ready to put childish things away.