The last few days have been some of the strangest and most anxiety inducing of my life, as well as some of the most enlightening.
There was a definite denial, I feel, on an individual and collective level, and when the 21-day lockdown was announced in South Africa, that is when I believe the gravity of the situation really sunk into place for most people.
This feeling of existential dread – I couldn’t put my finger on it but I knew I had been in this unfamiliar emotional space before, and then it clicked – Ayahuasca.
I have been to places in my mind, in my spirit, to other galaxies, I have no words for some of the places I have travelled to whilst drinking Ayahuasca but they all came with this same exercise – a theme in all my ceremonies – facing the unknown and my eventual mortality.
Honestly, if I had not done these ceremonies before, I don’t know if I would have handled the last few days to come.
What I can say is, if my adventures into the unknown have taught me anything, is that chaos and creativity are intimately interlinked and so, in my heart, I feel a deep sense that we can build a new and better way of being if we are willing to step into the unknown with bravery, and a healthy dose of humility to go.