There are a lot of what I assume to be great books about finding your one true calling or if you want to get a little flower-power about it, following your North Star. The idea that we all have some innate passion that will drive us for the rest our lives seems to be a big theme whether in terms of spirituality or just in terms of society in general. We’re expected to specialize in certain fields in order to be successful and if we don’t, the chances are we’re just going to be flailing around with no direction.
Well, I’d like to call bullshit. Bullshit. Horseshit. Batshit. I wont dispute the fact that there are many wonderful individuals out there that for some reason seem to find that one thing and for the rest of their lives they are set but for those who can never seem to really stick with something their whole lives, heres my message to you; Reality is impermanent and if you haven’t noticed, our personalities, our passions and hobbies are part of that reality-forever in a state of chaotic, maddening yet somehow synchronistic flux.
We are changing. All the time. This is such a beautiful thing that we have, I feel, been taught to fear it. Its the reason we build up political systems and high-rising towers; to distract us from the underlying chaos where structure and permanence seem to be lost but this constant state of trying to be pretend that anything is permanent is what is actually making us feel so unfulfilled.
The collective mind has created a world where the need to control, out of fear of scarcity, failure or whatever other grand story we can tell ourselves, is central. It is as if we are constantly trying to fit ourselves into already planned out storylines in order to avoid jumping into reality, to avoid the chaotic rumbling that is ready to swallow us whole, and dissolve our egos with it.
Beyond all these beautifully constructed tales, there is a place. A place that is maddening and chaotic and yet so still and so aware of which direction to take. We have somehow come to believe that there is nothing important to find here and so we construct stories that overlap and cause us to bump into each other-always fighting over some plotline that is ‘mine’ but if we just let the chaos take us, we would find that we flow so naturally, that there is no need for competition because everyone’s part just somehow works to serve the collective good and stories like having to stick to one passion, having to follow a certain plotline and never stepping out of this grand pre-written novel, is what prevents us from embracing this way of being.
The reality of it is, we don’t just have the freedom to create our own storylines but to jump to what may seem like completely different stories and sometimes in the middle, where we feel lost, we find the most beautiful gems. We learn that we are strong, that the opinions of others do not define us and that we can make it happen if we have the courage to follow our impermanent north star. Listen to your gut, pay attention to the signs and follow your heart for that’s where the chaos speaks.